Thursday, September 10, 2026

Finding My Voice

Thursday, September 10, 2026

Therefore, brothers and sisters, in view of the mercies of God, I urge you to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God; this is your true worship.  Do not be conformed to this age, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may discern what is the good, pleasing, and perfect will of God.  Romans 12:1-2

Parker Palmer wrote a small book[1]  that can have a large impact on making sense of an ordinary person’s life, and which can be used in extraordinary ways by God.  This happens when one listens carefully and obeys with trust in He Who gives graciously.  The book’s theme is that one of life’s main goals is to reject merely reflecting what seems rather important to others, or living what others seem to expect/demand from you, but rather to find your voice, your voca, the Latin term from which English derives the word “vocation” not just a career; rather our life’s purpose.  Letting one’s voice speak what our life’s purpose is/has been/will be is (according to Palmer) the truest expression of responding to that upward-call of being created in the image of He Who always is, always was, and always shall be.

Throughout my life I have despised my own personal tendency towards the “chameleon” safe way of fitting-in with the company with which I find myself.  As an introvert, it did not take long in life to discover it is easier to disappear into the wallpaper pattern that way, inoffensive, unimpeachable, and embarrass-proof to all minds, except He Who created me to be unique, useful, and truthful.  Parker Palmer’s book took form over a decade as essays delivered to various groups of graduating students as well as educational publications.  What I discovered in this short book helped push me to shed the chameleon skin for a set of wings – to let my voice finally speak what my inner-held thoughts had been ruminating for so long.  And those thoughts are the basis for any believer of living the life for which we are all created.  Fleshing-out Paul’s words to the Roman church, we are all, by the mercies of the living God, to NOT be conformed to this world’s systems, but to be transformed, with the goal of being recreated in the image of Jesus Christ, by the renewing of our minds, presenting mind, body, and soul to God in response to that calling (or voca) offering a reasonable service to God.  That’s a mouthful, but hang with me for a few moments.

An Inkling to the Voca

My first clue that “speaking up” would be a calling on my life happened in a canoe with Mr. Redding, who was a member of our church.  It was 1960, and our Pastor, along with a couple of brave church members like Mr. Redding, took a dozen of us young teen boys on a canoeing/camping trip through the Adirondack mountains for ten days.  Mr. Redding was my canoe buddy that day, and it was serenely quiet as we paddled along the edge of a calm pond, with water shimmering, glass-like, not a ripple, except for what our paddles stirred as we gently stroked our way along.  Finally, Mr. Redding broke the peaceful reverie.  “What do think a man ought to do if he wanted to quit smoking?”  Honestly, that a man with children my age should ask a 13-year-old boy for spiritual advice hit me like a ton of bricks.  I gave him an answer, kind of churchy, religious, safe:  “I guess you should commit to prayer and tell God you can’t stand it anymore; you want to be a better witness.”  Mr. Redding nodded from the front of the canoe and said “Right!”  And we paddled on quietly, both of us wondering what just took place.

Some years later I found out from my parents that when we all got back home Mr. Redding had told them, “I think you’ve got a preacher on your hands.”  At the time I didn’t want to hear that.  However, over the next few decades it became clearer that those words were the first “confirmation” to me, since I had come to faith in Jesus 5 years prior, that the drawing of God’s Spirit was so real, and it was pointing towards pastoral ministry.  It became clear to me that pastoral ministry was in the local church, not leading a Wesley-ish movement or Graham-ish crusades, but a local parish ministry of helping and proclaiming.

A Dilemma – of Sorts

Letting the voca speak and living a chameleon existence are two very different pathways.  The chameleon gets along with everyone, because he offends nobody, disagrees with no one, and just fits-in, untroubling, and untroubled.  That existence often demands playing loose with truth, while the other means speaking, living, and moving with that voice from within, and responding to that voice from above, prophetic/powerful, sometimes troublemaking, often comforting, always pursuing and proclaiming truth.  In the words of a preacher I once knew and admired, there is no wrong way to do right, and no right way to do wrong.  You can live a comfortable life if you don’t offend other people, but your insides will lie to you about the so-called comfort of that life.  On the other hand, without a commitment to truth, the first lie is to God who calls us to live in truth.  And when you value your comfort above God’s command to be truth-filled, you’ve just run afoul of the first commandment, to not put anything in higher priority than Almighty God.[2]

So, the dilemma in which I found myself was that it is much less complicated to always demand truth from myself, but it is uncomfortable.  I had to make a choice between the chameleon’s comfort, and God’s calling.

For You Today

So, how are you doing with that truth, whole truth, and nothing but the truth thing?  Sorry, did I just put you on the witness stand?  Well, there is a judge, you know.

You chew on that as you hit the Rocky Road; have a blessed day!  

[1] Title and Other Images: Hugo Ataide from Pixabay  Unless noted, Scripture from Christian Standard Bible©



[1] Parker J. Palmer, (San Francisco, Josey-Bass 2000)

[2] Do not have other gods besides me.  Exodus 20:3


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